IM DESPERATE FOR HELP

Once again I am asking the world for help. It is really not nice for me asking for help because honestly, I am usually the one giving it. So here is why you should help me on gofundme by either donating or sharing my link.

Why I need the money:

I need to move to keep myself safe from an ex who was and if allowed to continue to be emotionally abusive. He is a man who continued to treat me as something he could pick up and drop at the flip of a coin. He messed with my head so much that even now I struggle to believe I am worth someone good. I can’t change where I work but I can change where I live and this money would go towards helping me move somewhere safe and still be able to afford to get to work etc.

Why Should you help me:

I am a good person. You may think yea yea we hear this a lot but I am.

Even though I could, I work despite my disabilities and mentor people who have the same disabilities as me so that they can be confident to work as well.

I started my own campaign to make sure men and women who serve and protect communities, cities, and countries know that they are appreciated for all they do.

I volunteer with a military charity and write to active service men and women who are stationed away from home to help keep their morale up.

I help anyone in need. Recently been supporting a neighbor who has been going through hell with someone who was causing her serious stress and putting her in danger. I helped someone else out of a bad domestic abuse situation including making sure she was safe when she didn’t feel it.

I have never asked for praise for anything I do because I don’t do it for praise but for the fact that I want to make the world a nicer place to live.

So what now?

Please donate to my go fund me page: https://www.gofundme.com/4t77nm-my-first-home I really need your help. If you can’t afford to donate, please share my link. I am getting desperate. I need to move.

I am an Autistic with dyslexia, depression and spinal problems living in a situation where I want to cry almost daily and jump at any noise I hear when traveling. Please help me.

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Concerned

I really need to move house. I need help to get myself somewhere I can afford. I have an ex who is currently pestering me. I have changed my mobile number, I have had to change my facebook account and am seriously contemplating canceling all of my social media accounts. This ex knows where I live and I don’t want to risk him randomly turning up to my front door.

He is not abusive but he brings a lot of emotional crap. I need help. I can afford rent, I can afford to live but I need help to get the transport to and from work. Please help me: https://www.gofundme.com/4t77nm-my-first-home there is nothing legally I can do because all he has done is given me some seriously unwanted attention but I need to be somewhere that I do not worry if he will get posted back to London and turn back up at my front door

Autism – Social Energy

Last year during International Day of Persons with Disabilities we had a talk from Genius Within and they talked about the theory of Social Energy.

Basically, it is like the Spoon Theory for Lupus. We all have social energy tanks. Those who are Neuro-Typical have larger tanks than Neuro Diverse people. This is the key thing to know. Now like the spoon theory every action that we do takes away from your social energy tank. The problem is is that when someone who is neurodiverse who has a smaller tank thing gets drained a lot quicker than a neurotypical person.

Unlike the Spoon theory, however, we can refill our tanks. The idea is that if someone who is neuro diverse’s tank dips below 30% then we are likely to be in a meltdown mode. So with your social energy, it is very important to know where you are at and how you refill your tank.

For me, to refill my tank when I am at work, I go to the coffee shop and speak with the staff there. I find the break from work and what is draining my energy is a way to refill. When I goto my coffee shop I can be a little crazy and let out stresses. When I then return to work I find that I have avoided a meltdown. For me when I am in meltdown mode I know that I go very quiet and you can’t talk to me and I won’t talk to anyone. So to avoid this I keep an eye on my energy levels.

The other aspect of this is the fact that you need to find your safe space to do it. I know one person who stands in a closet. Others go and sit on a bench doing nothing but people watch. It is your safe space to find it.

Since learning this theory my team at work and I use it a lot. They ask me what my number is at when I need a break. This helps me focus on my own needs. I think that you all need to work on this to see if it can help you try and avoid your meltdown phases.

Strange Year

It has been a strange year for me in 2018 what with the new equipment I have at work to help with my dyslexia and the support that I get from my colleagues over my autism which I only found out about this year it has been a strange one. I am going to look forward to a year of discovery of me.

Autism and work

There is only a small amount of people who are Autistic and work. I am one of them.

I use work as an escape from family. If I didn’t work honestly I think that I would revert to something really low.

I need to get my own place but I need help. Two weeks holiday from work and I know I am struggling from day 1. If anyone can help me not only have a small reprieve from the hell I live in with work but a permanent one, please visit: https://www.gofundme.com/6jvfv8-i-need-help

Sadness

I am feeling sad today. I see so many people who support their Autistic family members and I wish that was my experience of support but it just isn’t and it makes me sad because I feel alone 😦

Its Hard When people dont understand you

So this Christmas, my family have been on top form. I am sure they dont believe that I am Autistic.

My mother, who has been told, that my issues with food is to do with the texture of it which is linked to my autism decided to completely forget the special food we picked out for Christmas for me and then said that I was “just being difficult”. When my dad asked me if he could have some of my wine and got the answer “no”, my brother told me I shouldnt be such a “rude Bitch”. I tried to explain that he asked me if he could have my wine, not why he could not have my wine and that those kind of questions are not easy for me to answer latterally… Just ask the judge in my benefit appeal who asked me “what would you do if you needed to get some milk?” I said that I would not go out. The judge then asked “why would you not go out for milk” and my response was, “I dont drink milk”. To me that was a logical answer to the question.

We went to my nans and my mum brought food with us that she knew I could eat. She said nothing about it until we got there, stood up in the middle of the room and said “I brought these because I know my daughter is difficult”.

My mum planned to change my routine around without telling me and when i questioned them on it I got introuble because my nephew heard me ask why we were not having pizza as it was pizza night. I spent the rest of the day in my room upset because I didnt understand why I was in trouble for questioning why my routine was being changed.

I have had to set up an anonymous gofundme page because I got in trouble for my last one (family found it)

I need help to get away from these people 😦 if you can help or know someone who can help please share my page. Please help me. I dont want to be living here by this time next year 😦

https://www.gofundme.com/6jvfv8-i-need-help