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Beth Chapman

So, I have wanted to write this since I heard the news that Beth Chapman had lost her battle with Cancer but I did not know the words I wanted to use.

I first saw Beth Chapman years ago when I started watching Dog the Bounty Hunter. I was going through a real tough time mentally and physically and honestly did not know what to do. I was so low that I honestly considered doing something stupid. I was flicking through the channels and then got to Dog the Bounty Hunter and I thought should be interesting because they had Ozzy Osbourne doing the theme song.

I watched these guys and gals chase down this fugitive and I saw Beth really get into it with her and the family. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. But then in the car Beth was talking to her about God and how she can change her life around and he is there for you no matter whAt. Honestly I was amazed. Not too seconds ago I saw her swearing so much you couldn’t understand the sentence because it was bleeped out and now she was showing so much love and compassion that I cried. I must have been in tears for like 30 minutes.

From that day I chose to be like Beth. When I needed to be tough I was and when I needed to show compassion I did. I saw that day that just because you are short or bigger then others or swear like a trooper you still matter and what you do to others still matters. Even if you loose your way there is always someone to welcome you home and that is God.

I followed Beth and Dogs journey from that day on and have been inspired every day. Between them they brought back my love of God and my faith in humanity. I am sad that I will never get to meet Beth now until the day I hopefully get into Heaven but I like to think she can see me now.

Earth may have lost an amazing woman but heaven gained an angel. She is up there making sure no fugitives escape there!

Dwayne Chapman: I doubt you will ever read this but I want you to know in the off chance that you do. Beth is still watching over you and the family, and you are strong and you can continue your amazing work. Just remember she hasn’t gone forever, she has just gone ahead of you to make sure everything is perfect for when you get there.


What Easter Means to Me

Ok, aside from the fact that you get chocolate on Easter it means a lot to me.

So, let me break it down for you. Lent is the period of time where Jesus went into the wilderness for 40 days and 40 nights. He did not eat and was tested multiple times by the devil. The week leading up to Easter Sunday is the period in the run-up to Jesus’s execution on the cross and Easter Sunday is the celebration as to when he rose again from the dead.

Now, technically, and I had this argument with my mother today it was 2 and a bit days, however, I am working on a 24-hour clock and she quite rightly pointed out they may not have had that during Jesus time. This is one of the things that my autistic mind struggles to contend with but it is one of those things that I just have to accept that I may never fully understand.

So, you may still be wondering why Easter is important to me. Well to tell you the truth, I have never known anyone who was willing to die for me. Have you? Jesus went to the cross knowing that he was going to die, that it would be a painful death and yet he still went. He didn’t sacrifice himself for himself, he did it for people who were not even born yet. That is true love and devotion in a can. He died so that every single person in the world could be washed of sin.

Even in the bible, it says that as long as we apologize for things that we do wrong then we are forgiven. It all stems out of Jesus sacrifice to us.

I am by no means a saint. In my 32 years, I have done enough to make God wash his hands of me. I have drunk, been very promiscuous, lied, cheated, and everything there in between. I have been a victim of abuse and because of the depression I have regularly told God that I hated him. Yet, in 2008 when I had a serious cancer scare (14cm lump in my left breast) and had to have major surgery to remove it, he still was there waving at me saying “see I am here”.  Ever since then I try and walk the path that he has for me.

The truth is once I stopped fighting God I have been able to see the right way to go. I am able to what my purpose in life is. God is amazing. As is Jesus.

That is why Easter is important to me.