2019: Message to our uniformed services

To all those across the globe who are going to be working on New Year’s Eve may I wish you a very safe and uneventful time and that 2019 brings you lots of things that you love and enjoy. Lastly, I would like to say #ThankYouForYourService

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2019 is around the corner

2019 is almost here. We have many things that at Christmas time we look back at and wish we had done better and yet we look to the new years and make resolutions that we are set up to fail.

I was watching a live stream for Aiden Hatfield who does amazing work and he said that you should be realistic about your resolutions. An example would be, “I will stop smoking by the end of the year”. This means that you are able to allow yourself the occasional slip up because your aim is to quit by the end of the year.

So for me, my resolutions are as follows;

  1. To stop smoking by the end of the year;
  2. To lose at least 20KG by this time next year;
  3. To continue to push myself in 2019;

Autism and work

There is only a small amount of people who are Autistic and work. I am one of them.

I use work as an escape from family. If I didn’t work honestly I think that I would revert to something really low.

I need to get my own place but I need help. Two weeks holiday from work and I know I am struggling from day 1. If anyone can help me not only have a small reprieve from the hell I live in with work but a permanent one, please visit: https://www.gofundme.com/6jvfv8-i-need-help

Sadness

I am feeling sad today. I see so many people who support their Autistic family members and I wish that was my experience of support but it just isn’t and it makes me sad because I feel alone 😦

Its Hard When people dont understand you

So this Christmas, my family have been on top form. I am sure they dont believe that I am Autistic.

My mother, who has been told, that my issues with food is to do with the texture of it which is linked to my autism decided to completely forget the special food we picked out for Christmas for me and then said that I was “just being difficult”. When my dad asked me if he could have some of my wine and got the answer “no”, my brother told me I shouldnt be such a “rude Bitch”. I tried to explain that he asked me if he could have my wine, not why he could not have my wine and that those kind of questions are not easy for me to answer latterally… Just ask the judge in my benefit appeal who asked me “what would you do if you needed to get some milk?” I said that I would not go out. The judge then asked “why would you not go out for milk” and my response was, “I dont drink milk”. To me that was a logical answer to the question.

We went to my nans and my mum brought food with us that she knew I could eat. She said nothing about it until we got there, stood up in the middle of the room and said “I brought these because I know my daughter is difficult”.

My mum planned to change my routine around without telling me and when i questioned them on it I got introuble because my nephew heard me ask why we were not having pizza as it was pizza night. I spent the rest of the day in my room upset because I didnt understand why I was in trouble for questioning why my routine was being changed.

I have had to set up an anonymous gofundme page because I got in trouble for my last one (family found it)

I need help to get away from these people 😦 if you can help or know someone who can help please share my page. Please help me. I dont want to be living here by this time next year 😦

https://www.gofundme.com/6jvfv8-i-need-help

 

Struggles of an Autistic

As people here know, I was diagnosed as autistic at the beginning of the year. It started to make more sense to me about what I go through on a daily basis. One thing, in particular, is my routine. We have made it so that every Friday is our Pizza night.

However, what makes it 10 times worse is when you live with people who do not understand or believe in the diagnosis that you were given. They neither like to help or prepare me when my routine is changed. When I question why my routine is changed they give me grief, abuse, and anger. I don’t understand why they can’t just accept that I am autistic and I need an like my routine.

I need to get away from here. I need to be free to be me… but how can I do that when people don’t want to help me and judge me for everything that I do. I need help.

Frustrated

I am frustrated with the social housing situation in the UK. When people who are allowed to abuse the social housing situation in this country. There are, however, people like me who are struggling to get a place of their own, barely able to afford private rented and is not allowed to get social housing. With medical issues and problems within this estate and yet I get screwed over. Now I am stuck in a living situation which is detrimental to my wellbeing and I am not allowed help.

I am now stuck having to go through crowdfunding in the hopes that I will be able to get anything to help me, even if it is just enough to put into savings to help me.

If anyone can help, I am at my wit’s end. https://bit.ly/2ValjRf