When I am in my home away from those who do nothing but bring me down I am alone. But I can handle being alone in this situation. However, when I am there, I feel more alone than ever. I know what those who abuse me think of me.
I am a fake!
I am a loser!
I am a hypochondriac!
They spend their time making me feel so small for something I can’t control. For something that I finally feel comfortable expressing. Now, because I know what they do and say behind my back I have to hide who I am again. It is tiring. I can’t believe it. Because of this, the only time I can be me is when I am on my own or at work. I thought with my autism diagnosis I would be freed, now it has just brought more abuse. What do I do? I need help and there is no help available because for me to report them to get help, I put the life of someone else in jeopardy who relies on my abusers. How can I make my life better only to make someone else’s worse? The only option I have left is to crowdfund. Life is suckish.
If anyone can help me stay safe please donate what you can. I feel like I am going to go insane otherwise. My PayPal Pool is https://paypal.me/pools/c/8jodKc0c02, however, I ask it is not put on facebook. I can’t risk someone finding out about it.
I am doing a new start to my blog. I am going to make this much more personal. I am going to tell you more about who I am and what I get up to on the day today. Living with my disabilities and living my life.
However, I have to ask again. To anyone there in the Neurodiverse community or the disability community who has the ability to donate please help me get myself out of a disgusting situation I find myself in.
I am being forced back into an abusive situation because I do not have the money to get out of it. I have to live with an abusive person when I have to be in London because I need to cover the cost of travel. I also have to stay because I owe the abuser £2k. This person would have no issue trying to force me onto Judge Rinder so that they could get the money that I don’t have extend the abuse.
The money would go to the following;
- 1-Years travel between London and where I live now
- 1-Years travel within London
- Pay my abuser back so they have no hold over me
- Get anything that I need to help me stay independent including shelving to minimize the need for bending
- Pay for services that I need to help with the maintenance of the flat
Please, could you help me donate as much as you can or, share the link?
Please help me if you can.