I feel it closing,
The familiar feel,
The desperation and emptiness,
Why is it back?
I do what I can to keep it away so why is it back?
What more can I do to keep it at bay?
How can I stop getting this lonely sinking feeling from engulfing me whole?
The emptiness is coming again. This time its stronger and I don’t know what caused it
I look out of the window and there it is, the black hole is beckoning me, its invisible forces pulling me closer and closer
It would be so easy for me to just let it bring me in but I know what the other side of that is,
The loneliness, the lack of work, I have fought to keep myself on the right side of that black hole but honestly, I always know,
One false step, one false move, can send me hurtling back to it and put me back in its orbit,
I can’t keep fighting without any support yet no one wants to help me.
How can it be that someone in need can’t be helped?
Not one person out there can see this black hole, I know it is there
It is closing in…