So tonight I want to talk about something that is really close to my heart. It is not something I really talk about so please be kind.
For me, Gender Identity has always been something that alludes me. I do not identify as a different gender and I was born female. However, my ex, used to joke that I was a man trapped in a woman’s body. I used to always shop for clothes in the men’s section until he came along. My wardrobe regularly consists of baggy clothes and I even sit like a man would sit, however, I was born female.
I also, however, have female qualities. I obsess over the way I look and if I am pretty enough for other people. I get self-conscious of my weight and when I am dating someone I always worry they’re looking at someone more prettier then I am. I don’t mind wearing girls clothes under the right circumstance and have even had bouts where wearing make up is something I actively want to do.
Some people call me a tomboy, others, like my ex, say I am a man trapped in a woman’s body. I don’t really know what this means for me. Part of me thinks that I identify as a humafridite but funnily enough there is not an option for that currently.
It can be so very confusing when you don’t really know what you identify as but I guess part of me identifies as male and part of me as female, or, if you think about it, I am just special.