Since I have been diagnosed with autism I am very hyper-vigilant about behaviours which may cause concern for others. This can be very tough as it has given me a state of anxiety over how I behave at work. This is very difficult to handle however I am always looking at what I can do to better myself. It, however, feels like I am learning to walk for the very first time. It can feel like I am taking one step back and 1,000,000 step back. I have had 32 years of trying to get someone to listen to me that I needed help, now that I have people I am trying very hard. I think that if I did not have my work then I would go insane with the millions of things that go through my head.